Lady Cat Lady

We’re going through some stuff down here in penis of the United States. As you know, Nick’s mom has been placed on hospice. Well, things went from bad to worse when Tuesday, we got the news that her cirrhosis is far more advanced than they originally thought. They told us to call the out of town relatives to say good bye. 

Then, yesterday, we got the call that she was taken to the Emergency Room. She was semi responsive and they believed she had pneumonia. 

She does not have pneumonia but is in septic shock.

She’s DNR.

They moved her to a regular room this morning since she didn’t need icu level of care, they aren’t treating anything. We are letting her go.

It’s been an incredibly difficult couple of days for the ole Debster. My emotions y’all. 

Fuck

I’m trying to be strong for Nick, but when he’s not around…I just well up in tears. Like I am now. 

I’ve grown unbelievably close to his mother over the last twelve years. And, while I know it’s nothing like what Nick and his sisters are going through, I hurt. 

I know how strong I am, I can get through this. But, fuck, y’all, my PTSD triggers are being slammed. 

Just breathe. Deep breaths. 

I’m ever so grateful I got the time I did with her. She’s an amazing woman. 

I am going to miss her.