Looked back on decisions you made and want to smack the crap out of yourself? I do, right now.
My ego made me believe I could deal with it.
Why did I think I was over it all?
I didn’t intend to go back and stay, it was supposed to be a quick pop in to say hi.
But I stayed and let a little anger out
Then a little more
Then more
And so on…
Now that I’ve done a speed run of returning and getting banned in two weeks, I don’t regret what I wrote. I regret picking that damn scab.
A wise person advised me to forgive and I understand and even agree with his point, my issue is that my feelings don’t wish to cooperate.
They want vengeance.
(Not physically, I’m a pacifist.)
They want acknowledgement and a sincere apology.
Logically, I know I won’t get either.
According to WholeChildCounseling.com justice sensitivity in ADHD is an intense deeply felt awareness of unfairness or wrongdoing, paired with powerful emotional and behavioral reactions to perceived inequities.
I feel as though I was treated unfairly last year. I picked at old wounds. My brain had an emotional response which leads to me hyper fixating on it, again.
See? I know what’s happening. I just don’t know how to stop the hyper fixation.
By the way, learning about justice sensitivity explained a lot about my life over the years. One of the reasons I started calling myself Enigma Initiative online was I didn’t understand why I did some of the things I did.
Well, now the new readers are super confused and old readers are shaking their heads at the latest on “As The Debbi Turns”
Cheers peeps
35 responses to “Have You Ever…”
BAM here. The site’s owner just plumbs new depths!
He’s a child. He can sit back and marvel at all the “good” he’s done.
Pssst…the art scene in Seattle has started talking about his link to race science. It’s slowly gaining traction. I’ll email a link, you don’t need an account to watch it.
They’ve just started talking about that? The Seattle art scene rather slow on the draw. – Saul
There was one from ten months ago, but it didn’t have as much traction.
I suppose is better now than never.
True
Hopefully your book sales will enable you to buy the site and turn it into what you want it to be.
I wouldn’t want to buy THAT site. It’s his, he can have it and run it into the toilet as he desires
https://conru.com/Andrea/
That link was sent to me a while back, but thanks for sharing it for others to see if they wish.
Here’s a link for you. Explains the direction the site is taking.
https://conru.com/Andrea/
I have to approve links, I approved it. Thank you for sharing it.
If anyone would like to see the instagram reel that I’m speaking about above:
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc3uQNMTMWL/
I found it doing a simple google search. Even if you don’t have Instagram, you can watch it by clicking out of the pop-up. Once you do, the video will start playing.
The comments are an interesting read. Do Recommend 10/10
Possibly the funniest, “It’s always the people who look like their parents are cousins who are into eugenics.” Again, what took them so long? His public apology didn’t get their attention?
Hysterical.
From what I read, many read it as PR rewrite of history.
Dear Troll
Bye now
If this comment is deleted, consider it proof positive that you are a hypocrite, in fact a hypocrite’s hypocrite. No difference in you being banned and then banning comments.
You can sure dish it out but can’t take it. You’re as thin-skinned as Andrew, just less intelligent, As I score it, it’s 2-0 Andrew.
I highly recommend you investigate the Dunning-Kruger effect. You are living proof of the thesis.
Dear Ms Robert,
After reading the harrowing tale of your experiences in the book I read on Kindle Unlimited for free at Amazon, I was moved to purchase the one-click $2.99 version.
I then visited your website here and read the comment about buying the site with your book royalties.
To be perfectly frank, your book was so well written and compelling, I would be honored to offer a loan to you with the future royalties of the book as collateral.
I look forward to our partnership.
Love,
Jeff Bezos
Alright Troll,
I’ll play, I’m bored.
Talk about Dunning Kruger effect. I wasn’t complaining about being banned, I was complaining about how I went back to the site, I made a poor decision, and I didn’t regret anything I said. I regretted going back to the site.
Work on your reading comprehension skills for fucks sake.
The Dunning-Kruger effect is a cognitive bias where people with low ability or limited knowledge in a specific area greatly overestimate their own competence.
So you went back to a site that you were fired from and posted inflammatory content about the owner and then realized it was a poor decision? And then go on to say that you didn’t regret anything you said?
Any reasonably intelligent human being with an iota of logic would not return to a site that they were fired from and post inflammatory material. And I won’t even mention their lack of self-respect.
Doing so would be greatly overestimating their competence. Wouldn’t you agree? And then….
… knowing what you knew before your triumphant return, that the owner contributes to racist causes, you still post on his site?
Good God, you, BAM and all the others that are still posting on there knowing his history, continue contributing to his platform?
None of you have any credibility. Or self respect.
Call it the Robert-Cope effect.
Hi Troll,
This has been extraordinarily entertaining. The fact that you had to go google a definition, copy-paste it onto my blog, and still managed to completely butcher how the concept works is pure comedy.
You realized you completely failed the reading comprehension test on round one, so now you’re trying to pivot to a pathetic moral lecture to save face. Nice try moving the goalposts, but you’re done here. Cope elsewhere, I won’t be approving any more of your comments.
Life happens! Every regret is life’s opportunity lessons. Onwards and upwards!
Yep, making making mistakes and trying to learn from them is part of being a human.
No, you are the first person that has experienced that 🙄
LOLOLOLOL…I deserved that.
You’re welcome. – Saul
Truly makes me wonder about the whole place over there.
It is time for you to move on to better things. Even though I do miss chatting with you. Just reminds me that I need to get off my butt and text ya.
Have a feeling that I won’t be on there much longer either. Will only miss about 5 people
Love ya toots… Sassy
It is time. Shoot, girl, I have to have my shoulder replaced. I have enough on my plate, and I know you have even more with your family stuff. Text anytime, I turn it off when I’m sleeping, so you won’t bother me.
Love ya too.
I never heard of justice sensitivity until I just read it. Holy crap. I was labeled differently, not ADHD, but the spectrum is the spectrum, to a certain extent. I need to explore this. Though I also want to forget bad things ever happen. Fuck the evil people.
Fuck the overly sensitive asshats.
You won’t get the apology you deserve.
You do get the love from a lot of people who know you speak truth.
The cats are so much better than stupid, delusional corporate idiots.
Big hugs!!!
Pony
Hi Pony!
Go do some googling, you’ll learn a lot. My psychiatrist actually says that to me…spectrum is spectrum to some extent. ADHD, ADD, and Autism share many of the same neurological issues.
Eh, I know I won’t, but it really is time to just move on to other things and put that place behind me. Ya know?
Big Hugs to you too
JN here.
I totally get the mysterious pull from the Community. Although we were eventually successful, I still wonder what drove us to fight so hard to get back to the blogs on what’s commonly known as a sex site filled with horny dudes who only see the women on the site as convenient cum dumpsters.
It was good to see you back on the site, it’s also true that the site and all it entails isn’t good for your mental health.
Hope to see you more often here.
Hugs!
Hey JN,
I know you get it. I don’t remember why we fought so hard either.
Ya, it really wasn’t at all good for my mental health. But I definitely enjoyed hanging out with you all again.
We will have to set up one of our video chats again soon!
I’m up for a video chat 😀
We will plan it for next week! I’ll email ya
It was real good to read your posts, sorry they retaliated with a ban. I myself have been sporadic on posting on the site, and sometimes go days without reading.. Happy to be able to read your posts here. Have a wonderful day!
Thanks. There’s no need to apologize, I take responsibility for my actions. Have a wonderful one yourself.